On the edge

You know living on the edge is supposed to be something exciting and dangerous. Being edgy is cool. or hot or whatever is the in temperature.
I'm on the edge.
And I don't like it. Call it old age, gen gap pr what you will.
Today is one of those days when i feel I'll fall. fall apart. It's one of those days when I feel so overwhelmed by everything. MS word scares me. Meetings give me the shivers. Bosses creeps. Husband nervous break down. I don't even feel like reading. Perhaps I should do some crazy therapeutic thing like watching the whales. Or like this clacking at the comp.
I just want to close my eyes. I wish i could go away into nothingness.